Who's to blame.

I look at Mummy and see how she behaves and thinks. They're not blame because they weren't educated and/or brought up the right way. However since I have an education, I should know better than to blame them for how I am. I have control now and I shall make a difference in my life.

The world that we live in.

Home's probably the best place on earth for all of us and I'm pretty sure you'd hate it when people aren't respectful when they go over to your place. Don't we live in the world? IN? We're a species to make Earth our home yet we do not treat it with care. Oh bother.

I've been thinking since I was a kid on why things are done the way they are and if we say we're logical, intelligent creatures, then why are somethings not logical but rather emotionally driven or done because it's been done to us before.

I'm contemplating if I should ever have children. I'm pretty sure it'll bring my relationship/marriage to the next level when I have to care for a new being but looking at this world I often ask myself will my kid want to live in the world we have now? Balance is extremely difficult to achieve and we're tipping the scales of the nature versus man-made issue.

We care too much about what we want. Being able to achieve a certain standard of living that's just right so we can give back to nature and ensure our world will survive and thrive is attaining utopia and because it seems so ideal we don't pursue it.

Let's weigh some factors right now. Populating the planet's what a species would do, to be the dominant, ruling species. That's fine, we want to populate the planet with humans that's perhaps the most basic instinct so that's acceptable else we won't have anything to live for, we'll be the slaves for the monkeys or something haha.

I think the one thing that we humans yearn for and probably is the cause for everything is status. Or in a more indirect way of saying I want to look good (not necessarily physically but socially/politically/financially more powerful). So I think to myself okay that's fine I mean it can be summed up into one word right, having pride. If we're all the same, humans, homosapiens or whatever we label our species (before we turn into mutants, i kid) the only thing that separates us and gives us a sense of identity is pride. We yearn for a sense of identity and we can get it through pride, to feel like we have a place in this world, to feel like we mean something. Is this what we have that differentiates us from animals? After having the ability to survive for long periods, the only difference is that we have pride. Fulfilled Maslow's Hierachy of Needs and now we've to fulfil Maslow's Hierachy of Needs Part 2 where we compare the pyramid to someone else's and say hey I've got what I have now but am I better in anyway than this other person or 6 billion other people on earth? Then once this thought gets put into the world, everyone requires pride, unknowingly we're digging our own graves by subconsciously being influenced to compare ourselves with others. Perhaps it's a natural trait of humans, to be competitive. However in this day and age we're competing against others for pride, money, status and we're going too fast. That is the world I live in and know of today.

I shall get an education, a career for money not to attain status but to provide society a service in exchange for the work I do in the form to be traded for survival in this world. Survival and appreciating, realizing the world around us instead of being too engrossed with ourselves.

Perhaps I'm lucky to be more liberal in my thinking. (:

A thought.

As I was sitting in the bus thinking to myself about the world, the people in it and why we do what we do I've come to a personal enlightenment. I realize we've not been appreciating and enjoy what the world has to offer us, naturally. The cultures, people, natural wonders of the world and how it supported our evolution and advancement in life. Technology is indeed one of the most life changing aspects of living that has impacted us greatly. On the bare minimum level it now allows us to live comfortably, in convenience, in a clean environment. However we're not satisfied with just living comfortably in a home, exploring the world and learning more about it. We've become a species that's self absorbed, self conscious and want so much more than we really need. I've been asking questions my entire life about why we do what we do, forming my own mental constructs of the social/psychological world because what's in front of us is just matter. It has no life of its own, just a life that we give it because we think in a certain way, we think we need it to be happy.

I'm 22 years old and I'm about to complete my National Service (NS) in 8 months time. My life will start after NS, where I plan my route and destination for the rest of my life till the day that I die. Yes I will plan for my last years because being prepared will allow me to appreciate life and also death for it's a cycle that allows the world to have a certain balance and continuity in life.

This blog will contain my thoughts about life. How I'll go ahead planning for my career, future, short/long term goals, retirement, death and perhaps even children if I decide to have any.

At this point in time I have 3 short term and 2 long term goals.

Short Term (3-5 years)

1. Attain a degree with the highest grade I can possibly get with all my time and effort put in

2. Find a job and/or a career whichever comes first for experience and then for how I'll live my life

3. Love my girlfriend and make it last.

Long Term (8-10 years)

1. Save for a house/furnishing (downpayment of 25-50k and furnishing of 10-15k)

edit: HDB flats can use 100% of OA to pay for 10% initial downpayment and balance payments.

2. Get Married (a simple, memorable experience. nothing to impress the relatives what not)

This's the start of my journey of educating myself of ways to be happy by knowing what options I have to get to my destination in the most efficient way possible!

Be contented with your life (: I am!